Friday, May 2, 2008
jus came back after drinking wif my frens..my bottle of martel jus got wasted in two hours..we hasnt been contacting each other for days.. i do miss her... i seriously do... but when i tink of her being together wif him, it jus breaks my heart.. maybe tinks wasnt as bad as i tink but our relationship is getting from bad to worse.. i dun understand how it could turned out to be lidat...is it becoz i cant trust her or am i realli reading too much into it? i dun wish to bother neither does she wanna explain wad is going on...im very confused, confused to the extent i wonder if we shld still be together...ltr she is going to bring him over, i realli cant stand her being wif him.. who would?i believe no guy can tolerate such tink...i wish to ask her out but it seems dat she is still angry wif mi.. i dun wish to waste my holidays doing nth at home...today i went wif tianlong to orchard but its seems dat when u dun haf the mood to go shopping, there is nth to see or go to...in the end i jus went over to the arcade and vent all my frustration there and walk for abt an hour and i head back home... she went to see movie wif him today... i been wondering when we could go out and catch a movie together for months yet she went wif him... and worse still tml she is going to bring him over for service... i dunno wad i shld do or react when i see em...seriously i wanted to tell her long ago how much i loved her and how much i cherish our time together but whenever i want to tell her, tinks always took a change..im realli depressed over her and at a loss of wad to do... i've been tinking if she realli wants to be wif mi why cant she jus spend time wif mi and not him? he is the root of the problem and to solve tis conflict is very easy.. but why cant she make a little sacrifice? am i being unreasonable and going overboard? at one point of time i tot of giving up but i jus cant bear to gif up jus lidat...wo hen bu fu shu! why shld i haf so little confidence over such a guy lidat? wo jiu shi bu neng hen sha tou ti fang qi...she realli matters to mi alot...no one can replace her position in my heart... i jus wish she cherish mi as much as i do cherish her... but i jus cant let her haf her way regarding tis matter...anytink but tis! i realli cant tolerate dat...u may say dat i possessive or no confidence in myself but i jus dun care! i jus dun wanna see her wif him! can she realli understand how i feel? im feeling dizzy, time to get some rest i been having less dan 7 hours of slp for the past 2 days... time to go to bed!
i love you endlessly.
10:38 AM
Aaron