Saturday, March 8, 2008
recently alot of ppl said dat i haf change towards my character...how come i din realise it myself?even my bunk mates said dat i so quiet nowadays, always lying on my bed staring into space and kept myself from others unlike my usual self, always laughing and cracking jokes...how am i suppose to be cheerful when im having so much problems dat too much for mi to handle?my skin prob, the pressure that i had to take during my weekdays there and her...everyday wondering when he will tekan mi, had to be caution in everytink, making sure i dun commit any small mistakes lest he gif mi extras again and my relationship wif her...i jus feel dat it seems dat we haf been stagnant for quite a long time...doesnt seems to mi dat its getting better day by day...i jus simply doesnt understand wad she is tinking...maybe love cannot be forced ba...jus let nature take its own course...if we aint meant to be, den i shld learn to let it go, rather dan clinging on, knowing there is no result in tis relationship...certainly months has passed and i haf tried my best in proving to her how serious i am towards her but it seems dat nothing works...times where by message send mi to mi made mi feel dat im actually meant sometink to her but times whereby message send to mi made mi feel dat im jus nothing...why cant i haf a definite answer?i jus at a loss of wad to do now...i dunno whether to move on or shld i gif up oredi?seriously i dun blame her coz it all depend on mutual feeling and not jus one person alone...everyday i kept tinking abt her and at night jus cant get to slp all becos of tis kinda of stuffs...haf i realli gone way too deep down?frens encourage mi to gif up while i still can but i jus dun bear to until i hear her say it to mi ...i jus wish she could realli tell mi even if its a bad news, at least i noe its time to gif it up...does he meant more to u or mi?thats all i nid to know and haf to know...well gonna turn in, tml going to zoo wif eve they all...jus wished to relieve myself wif all tis problems dat im currently facing...
i jus nid an answer, can u gimme dat?
crucify my love
i love you endlessly.
12:39 PM
Aaron