Monday, February 4, 2008
praying, fasting and visiting her...dats all i could tink of to help her at tis point in time...i dunno if she realise my presence there but i jus make it a point to travel down jus to keep a glance at how she is doing and keep track of her condition everyday...today i nearly break down when i saw cons outside, wif tears in her eyes after visiting, telling mi dat she wanted to pull out the needles from her hands...i could understand why she wanted to do tis but its seems dat coping in there has make her realli lonely...wad more can i do?all i can ask for is let her recover fast, thats all i wish no matter wad it takes for mi to do, i will try my best jus for her...today watching the nurse tying up her hands realli grieves mi alot, esp when she still trys to break free from it...i noe deep down she is suffering alot...
Lord, if U are there pls answer my prayers...i could imagine her late in the middle of the night, crying out wif fear and loneliness in her with nobody around her to comfort her and keep her accompany...Pls keep ur faith strong, we are all praying real hard for u! i realli wish i could get into the room and keep her company even at the risk of getting the virus...she asked mi to come in dat day but i jus couldnt even though i realli wish i could...2 more days would be her upcoming 18th birthday...i oredi planned to celebrate wif her and get the present rdy but guess she gonna spend her birthday in hospital tis year...i realli hope she wun try to pull out the needles or do any foolish tinks again...i realli cant imagine wad i would do if her conditions were to worsen anymore...nthing must happen to her! i dun even noe myself how much i can hold it any longer...every nite i can onli slp at around 4 plus 5 and when i finally get to slp, nightmares abt her keep coming after mi, scaring mi up from my slp...Michelle if u can hear mi, pls stay positive jus as i am doing the same as well...Gina shared wif mi a very interesting verse which reali helps mi alot in staying positive...Thnks alot!
Psalm 30:2O LORD my God, I cried out to You, And You healed me.Pls continue to press on, will u ?
i love you endlessly.
12:08 PM
Aaron