Thursday, February 7, 2008
i suddenly grew so afraid to go to the hospital even though i wanted so much to go everyday...the moment when i step in, fear strucks mi as usual, not knowing whether will she be better or worse...dat when im so afraid to face it...but nevertheless, i know dat i haf to face it somehow so everytime i pluck up my courage and visit her...
come to tink of yesterday, i realli felt quite pissed and jealous, unable to explain why when i saw shawn is there..of course it would be great if more ppl could come and visit her but when i noe dat she informed shawn abt her being hospitalised, i knew from the moment he still hold a certain place in her heart...she jus couldnt forget abt him...but i understand dat now is not the time to be jealous over tis trival tink but realli hope for the best for her...
she is certainly the strongest and bravest gal whom i ever saw...i noe she is realli fighting against her illness even though it tires and torture her so much...but i believe she is able to perserve on wont she?i haf faith in her! today was her birthday! i wanted so much to celebrate wif her...i bought her a present but i cant gif it to her tis day...i wanted so much for her to haf it and seeing her smile when she receive her present...could u imagine a person whom she is so sick on her birthday and new year while others are out there enjoying, full of laughter?i noe she is certainly disappointed dat she din get to celebrate her 18th birthday wif her frens...
i dunno if she realli tot of spending her birthday wif mi...but jus wanna wish her happy birthday and wish for her to haf a speedy recovery...all i looked forward to is seeing her recover and see the michelle dat i used to noe...if there is any way dat could make her recover, i would go all the way down no matter how hard or how long it takes jus to see her back to her old self...
Happy 18th Birthday to u, Michelle! May all ur wishes come true....when u're gone, pieces of my heart im missing u...
i love you endlessly.
11:38 PM
Aaron