Saturday, February 9, 2008
jus came back from guard duty...now tired and hungry but gonna endure...im too hungry to the extent my hands keep trembling when i try to sign out the book..nevertheless i will still endure till 6pm! since yest i been wondering and worried whether she is doing fine and how is she doing...ltr after service den i go down and visit her before i nid to book in again ba...i tried my best to get my leave approved but ended up someone insist on seeing mi tonite! wad an ASS !!! its come to a certain point dat realli no words can describe wad im feeling now...even i myself sometime oso cannot understand myself...haf i let my emotions rule over my head?i dunno and i dun care anymore...somehow whenever i start praying for her, strong presence of God always come and as i pray, tears always nv fail to roll down...is it becoz im touched by God or wad? i guess God hears my prayers...i worried abt tml onwards when i go back camp...im fasting from 6am-6pm as always...but when i go back camp...i wonder if i can survive without food and doing so many activities at the same time...basically 6-6 consist of my breakfast,lunch and dinner...so i can onli eat my onli meal dat is ordering takeaway if my sgt permits mi to do so if not too bad for my stomach ba...i will try my best to endure all the way unless i realli faint or wad den dat is decision for mi to make...i hope ltr when i see her, she is already able to open her eyes and tok before i book in and see nxt fri...
my wish for tis coming year is to let her recover fast and stay healthy always, always the michelle dat i always wanna see, full of smile and radiance...i wonder if i shld eat now?in a dilemna...shld i convert today to veggy fast or not?
i love you endlessly.
5:29 PM
Aaron