Sunday, December 2, 2007
Wake up today by tianlong phone call, scare the hell outta of mi!! i look at the time, its oredi 11.20!!! 12pm service start..so dulan yesterday, went back home after shopping wif edwin they all end up go home keep rushing to toilet...zhen de hen xin ku!!! cant imagine u keep rushing in toilet after u jus come out...After dat i felt so tired den lie on my bed but i even get to slp coz my stomach is still feeling so uncomfortable...So i decide to seek help from Him, my dearest Father...Prayed and after awhile felt better and get to slp...Dat why i cant even wake up today...Ever since i come back from Australia, i at night cant get to slp, morning wake up damn early, i oso dun dare to eat much food unless im realli hungry coz i might vomit anytime or starting visiting toilet...Told wenshan abt tis, she told mi it might be shui tu bu fu -
away for a period of time, then as a result u got used to the customs and practices there,
come back, need time to adjust back to usual practices here... Omg i oso when i suffer tis kinda of tink but i believe so coz i been suspecting tis as well...
Tooked mi 20min to bath dress up and arrived in church, they were so shocked said dat i was different from the past who used to take 1hr at home to prepare everytink...Perhaps is becoz im too used to army life dat why everytink muz be fast...I went in there, felt dat the hall was very small and crampy and the music over there is not as good as the one in expo...But when the praise and worship starts, i could feel the presence of God strongly...Dat when i realise it doesnt even matter how big or small a place is, whether the music is good or jus a guitar, God presence will oso be there if u realli praise Him deep in ur heart! Pastor Kong shared wif us a very good sermon and i was attracted to a certain verse during his preaching..
Mark 11:22-2323 "For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, 'Be removed and be cast into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says.24 "Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when u pray, belioeve that you will receive them, and you will have them. This 2 verses realli left a deep impression in my heart...I shld realli cast out my fear and worries and pray to God abt wad i realli want and i believe dat i will receive it from Him...I shldnt haf worry abt failing when i din even try...I realli wish to show her how serious and sincere i am towards her but wad im lacking is jus a chance...I believe dat one day she will realli noe understand how i feel towards her...
i love you endlessly.
10:27 AM
Aaron